1. Memos suck. They suck hard like vacuum cleaners. They mostly suck because of bluebooking. And let me tell you- you thought citing your papers in undergrad/high school sucked. Try figuring out what initials are appropriate for each state. Oh you thought it was IL? Naw playa it's Ill. Make sure the period has the right spaces -_-
2. Boys suck harder. Thought he was cute, he thought I was cute. We promised to talk and then BAM... find out around the way he has a "girl." Now apparently girl is code for a whole shit basket of things but I'm not trying to be a part of any of it.
3. My BBM is awesome. Every time I'm sad I look to my friends on BBM and let them cheer me up. I get ones that range from how rude I can be to my friend's relationship drama. I swear friends are the greatest resource you can have.
4. The treadmill and I have a love hate relationship. I always get on there with big dreams of running a 5k and the maximum I've been hitting is 2.5k this week-but hey bad exercise is better than no exercise right?
5. I'd also like to point out that my relationship with wardrobe has improved. I'm literally fitting into a smaller clothes that I thought I'd never wear. Kinda makes me happy.
ok I lied it REALLY makes me happy.
6. Finally this weekend is fall break. It has many meanings. One: going to home to chicago. Two: Seeing my mommy and my friends. Three: It's time to officially start outlining for december exams. Four: Trial team tryouts are only a couple of weeks away. Oh yes shit hits the fan. You thought I was MIA here before.... check me out November 1st. I've already been hitting up lululemon and vs pink to make sure I look good in the library.
I mean it would be nice to come out with that JD/MRS dual-degree.
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Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Friday, August 27, 2010
to be self motivated.
I've always wanted to be successful- I've always been competitive. Even when I didn't want to work hard- I hated knowing that there were others doing better than I was. I say all this to say that my passion to do well has always inspired me to work- but never to work hard enough.
I've gotten at this crux in my life when everything is not just for games. High school- a game. Undergrad- a bit more serious but still a game. My masters? checkers. But now here I am in law school. This is it. Every move I make here is important. Every hour in my life just decides what 1,000 hours of my future looks like. I have to realize that until I take to heart the seriousness of what I'm doing here that I will fail. Yes, fail.
I've been fortunate. I've been so ridiculously fortunate that at times I realize that I have forgotten that I can't coast forever. Now my friends will tell you that my version of coasting is different from everybody else's but you know what? If i'm not at my best- I'm at my worst. Now that another birthday has rolled around and I'm creeping closer to 25- I have to remember what I want to do in life. The impact that I want to make. I don't just want to be rich or wealthy. I don't want to be famous. I want to make a change in this world. I sat around and studied my behind off for the LSAT so that I could start making steps towards where I belong. My law mentor very smartly told me that every time I want to take a breath or feel like I can't go on- I should remember why I'm in law school. Why I worked hard to get here. That statement has been such a push for me that I wrote it down on the top of every page of my journal but today I heard something that made me realize that as much as I want to live, eat, and dream those words- I'm just not there yet.
"until you want to be successful as much as you want to breathe- you will never be successful"
bam. I want it. I want it bad. But do I want it as much as I want to breathe? In the video, Sean talks about how when you have an asthma attack the only thing you think of is being able to breathe again (having had multiple attacks- he's certainly right)... Sean argues- that's how you should be with your success. When you are on your path the only thing you should be thinking about is what you're doing. Not partying, not romance, not tv... what is ahead of you. I'm not sure that I'm 100% convinced that you have to forego everything to eventually have it all I do remain in scheme with the thought. If I want to make a difference- I have to focus a lot more on what I'm doing now. On how important what I want to do is... how it's not just for me.
Looks like I've found a new project for me and God....
I've gotten at this crux in my life when everything is not just for games. High school- a game. Undergrad- a bit more serious but still a game. My masters? checkers. But now here I am in law school. This is it. Every move I make here is important. Every hour in my life just decides what 1,000 hours of my future looks like. I have to realize that until I take to heart the seriousness of what I'm doing here that I will fail. Yes, fail.
I've been fortunate. I've been so ridiculously fortunate that at times I realize that I have forgotten that I can't coast forever. Now my friends will tell you that my version of coasting is different from everybody else's but you know what? If i'm not at my best- I'm at my worst. Now that another birthday has rolled around and I'm creeping closer to 25- I have to remember what I want to do in life. The impact that I want to make. I don't just want to be rich or wealthy. I don't want to be famous. I want to make a change in this world. I sat around and studied my behind off for the LSAT so that I could start making steps towards where I belong. My law mentor very smartly told me that every time I want to take a breath or feel like I can't go on- I should remember why I'm in law school. Why I worked hard to get here. That statement has been such a push for me that I wrote it down on the top of every page of my journal but today I heard something that made me realize that as much as I want to live, eat, and dream those words- I'm just not there yet.
"until you want to be successful as much as you want to breathe- you will never be successful"
bam. I want it. I want it bad. But do I want it as much as I want to breathe? In the video, Sean talks about how when you have an asthma attack the only thing you think of is being able to breathe again (having had multiple attacks- he's certainly right)... Sean argues- that's how you should be with your success. When you are on your path the only thing you should be thinking about is what you're doing. Not partying, not romance, not tv... what is ahead of you. I'm not sure that I'm 100% convinced that you have to forego everything to eventually have it all I do remain in scheme with the thought. If I want to make a difference- I have to focus a lot more on what I'm doing now. On how important what I want to do is... how it's not just for me.
Looks like I've found a new project for me and God....
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Life ain't no crystal stair....
There's a girl in my legal skills section who is just plain annoying. I don't mean in that law school gunner (spent all night studying) annoying- I mean the I'm too good to be here with you peasants annoying. She constantly looks bored, I overheard her on the phone today talking about how she needed a computer in order to have something else to do. Sigh. We get it- you are some super genius who Harvard just so accidently forgot off their acceptance list. But let's be honest- your first year of law school is basically the same ANYWHERE you go. There are 6 subjects you must know: torts, criminal, civil procedure, property, contracts, and constitutional law. Some schools will mix it up on you- but essentially you aren't very special as a 1L. Let's also be frank- 6,532 people applied for 183 spots in this class. If you don't want to be here I'm pretty sure that someone from Washington & Lee would gladly take your spot - relieving the other 15 people in our class. So let's suck it up and don't ruin my orientation- k?
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Enough of ranting... I was reading an amazing post by my friend over at the 25 Project on praying to God but realizing the limitations of you as man. I was reminded how me ending up at my law school was the definition of asking the right questions and having faith in the answer you receive. Here was my response:
The entire time I was applying to law school I kept praying that God would get me into the law school I wanted to be at. I was talking to my ex about the situation and how I was really hoping that God would present me with the opportunity to go where I wanted and he said: why don't you ask God to put you where you need to be? I didn't get into the place that I wanted but I ended up with an offer I couldn't resist at a place where it seems (for now) I'm actually blessed to be.
And that ladies and gentlemen is the reminder I'm holding with me this year. Especially as I'm burying my head in a 4 page case brief during orientation week.
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Enough of ranting... I was reading an amazing post by my friend over at the 25 Project on praying to God but realizing the limitations of you as man. I was reminded how me ending up at my law school was the definition of asking the right questions and having faith in the answer you receive. Here was my response:
The entire time I was applying to law school I kept praying that God would get me into the law school I wanted to be at. I was talking to my ex about the situation and how I was really hoping that God would present me with the opportunity to go where I wanted and he said: why don't you ask God to put you where you need to be? I didn't get into the place that I wanted but I ended up with an offer I couldn't resist at a place where it seems (for now) I'm actually blessed to be.
And that ladies and gentlemen is the reminder I'm holding with me this year. Especially as I'm burying my head in a 4 page case brief during orientation week.
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